I tried to look for enjoyment at the casino but I could forget the unhappiness only temporarily. At that time, my health deteriorated and I looked skinny. When I met my friends, they could not recognize me. I was really very unhappy. My continuous grievances at home made me more than once think of ending my life. I did not want to face all these unhappiness anymore. I even got someone to make a will for me. But when I thought of my family, pondering what would become of them after my death, I had no choice but abandon the idea.

During this period of time, I remembered some friends who came from my home country. They believed in Jesus Christ and they looked happy every time I saw them. I thought, ‘I’ll go with them to the church. Maybe it’s good just to know some more friends.’ So, I attended the church gatherings with them. 

Once, a sister in the church mentioned that she used to feel upset when her son complained about her but she changed after she had believed in God. No longer did she feel angry, on the contrary, she understood that maybe there was something that she had not done well enough. I wanted to be like her putting aside all my resentment and unhappiness. Not long after that, a sister preached the gospel to me, and I determined to believe in God.

After I believed in God, my emotion and health improved a lot and so did the insomnia. I did not need medication anymore. My grievances and pressure, which could not be put aside before, were then laid down because of The Lord Jesus. I felt so peaceful and joyous. I thanked God that I was no longer bound up and imprisoned by resentment. It was God who had saved me and changed my life. He made me feel that life was full of hope and value.

I had no self-confidence before and I was timid. The side effect of the medication left me a poor memory. I was so afraid to go out shopping and least to say to take a flight back to mainland China alone. It was something out of the question for me. But after I believed in God, the Lord Jesus gave me confidence and the brothers and sisters in the church encouraged me. I tried to learn English, take the train to London and take the flight back to China all on my own. I was grateful that the Lord Jesus had given me courage and confidence.

After my belief in God, I found that I was truly blessed. I prayed to God that my relatives and friends would all know Him. I thanked God that my daughter, seeing the changes in me, went to the church gatherings with me. Soon she also believed in God. Now, my daughter and I go to the church together every Sunday.

In the past three or three years, many relatives of mine came to believe in God one after the other. We were overjoyed. We hope that you can know Jesus’ salvation grace, in which you can get peace and joy.Chen